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I thought this photo was so appropriate for what I’m going through, and or, what all of us may be going through in our lives. Right now,  some very close to me are walking boardwalks of healing from loved ones lost, some are on a walk of education,  some walk in a new career, some are recovering from addictions, some are suffering consequences from stupid choices made, some are mending marriages, some are coming upon marriage, and some are slowly dying while others I’m sure are close to creating life. Some boardwalks are longer than others, while some seem as if your barefoot, your skin is burning and there’s no end in sight. You can see the light, at least you think you can, but it’s taking forever! Did I mention your feet are now blistering because it’s so freakin’ hot?

Yesterday I felt like this was me, me feet were on fire and I had a bit of a breakdown. Just so you know, I used to be a big crybaby, totally losing it all the time, all the while thinking my tears were somehow making people feel sorry for me when in fact it was doing the opposite. You see, I discovered that tears are not to be taken for granted and over the years with the help of my other half, I have grown thicker skin.  I learned what it felt like to cry with sincerity not to provoke reactions in others. So yesterday when I was by myself, I was sitting behind my computer and I just lost it. I went to the couch and just lost it! A part of my “boardwalk”, and the most important part,  is the one that I have begun and will never end.  It’s my walk with Jesus Christ, and so in my deep darkness and frustration with my career, I called to the only person I knew could comfort me.  At moments I found myself yelling in anger, others I pleaded for direction and begged for forgiveness, and I think I sat in silence for who knows how long while I could feel the sobs beginning to dry, as if somehow slowing evaporating from my body, and then I was done. I suppose this is what it feels like when you  “give it to god”. After that, my grief was not so heavy anymore. That cry was something I needed, totally cleansing  my soul and when I was finished I thought of John 15:1-8 (NIV) The Vine and the Branches. I’m not gonna type it out, if you feel, you will seek it and read it. The point is, when it seems as if there’s no way I can make it to the end of that boardwalk, when the heat is unimaginable, when splinters and blisters plague my feet,  as long as I remain in him, this boardwalk will be blessed. So today a good friend, who strangely enough has just entered my life,  shared the photo she took above. It’s so weird how people are placed in your life, or taken out,  for special reasons. This is so apparent to me now…. but seriously this picture spoke right to me, it was so crazy! Thus I share it with you. So today with sunscreen, sunglasses and flip flops, (Jesus),  in tow….I’m gonna continue walking.

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